To all the people who were glad to say goodbye to 2011 and couldn't wait for 2012 to start I say screw you! I feared that 2012 would be a bad year and thus far it's been pretty fucking shitty. Perhaps those damn Mayans were on to something when they decided to end the calendar this year. All I know is that i'm determined to make this a good year, despite the serious setbacks and beatings i've taken and will probably take for a few months longer. Sigh!
In all seriousness though, i'm currently learning some valuable lessons, and one of them is that true friendship is something that you must never take for granted. When the chips are down that's when you see people for what they really are and I feel beyond lucky to have certain people in my life. I've always been the emotionally independent type but sometimes you come across a bump that you simply can't handle by yourself nor should you even attempt to go at it alone. And I didn't. I had to throw in the towel and admit that I needed help, and I seeked it, and I can't tell you how grateful I am for that. I needed someone to hold me still and ground me, and that's exactly what my best friend did for me. And others helped me as well. I got to see complete strangers reach out and show me humanity that I thought no longer existed. But it's there. There are still amazing, wonderful people in this world and to rediscover that is an awesome thing. For several years now i've been someone who had faith and prayed, and this aspect of my life is only getting stronger. I know that there are many who don't believe or are turned off by that, but I simply don't care to cater to anyone's opinion. I know what I believe and nothing or no one will change that. I'm going to continue to fight my way through the crap and with each blow i'm dealt i'm going to punch back. This year is going to end up good GODDAMMIT!!!!!!!!