Tuesday, December 31, 2013


The year will be over in just a few hours, and with it goes me being 41. I turn 42 tomorrow (don't recall what time exactly I was born). I'd say that the worst part about being 42 is all the older people who always have shit to say like "that's nothing, try being (insert older age)!". Well who the hell asked you, anyway???
But being older does come with benefits. Mostly experience that hopefully makes you wiser. Here's just a few things i've learned in 42 years on this planet....
** Physical fitness is important. The more you do at a young age the better your body will feel at an older age, as well as slowing down the aging process.
** Most older men are fantastic in bed. Even as a younger guy I always had the best sex with older dudes. More often than not they know how to please a man, whereas their younger, hotter counterparts may look good naked, but sadly, in most cases that's all they have going for them, because many (not all, but a lot) will leave you wondering "is that all there is???"
** Life is too short to hold on to excess baggage, whether it's yours or is attached to someone else. Pull out those sharp shears and cut that shit loose!
** Life is too short to not enjoy yourself, so take that trip you've always dreamt of, pursue that job you've always wanted, pursue that guy you've always been too self conscious to pursue, start that hobby you've always imagined, etc, etc. Just live your life and let the haters rot away like the bitter old bags that they are.
** Nothing makes a hangover better than a good Bloody Mary.
** Don't hang on to people who don't want to stick around. Point them to the nearest exit and let their asses leave.
** A man with a huge dick who doesn't know how to properly use it as useless as a car with no wheels.
** Don't expect anyone else to make you happy. Get off your naive butt and go find that happiness yourself.
** Don't base your worth on what others think of you. It's YOUR life, not theirs!
** A smile and a good attitude can go a long way.
Happy New Year, keep on truckin', keep on fuckin'!  ;-)

Sunday, December 22, 2013

A random thought about thong underwear.

I have lots of different types of underwear. Boxers, briefs, jockstraps... only 1 pair of thongs though. I hardly wear them. Not because I'm bothered by the sensation of the thin strap in my ass crack. It's more that the "pouch" doesn't seem big enough to hold my junk in. I'm not packing a great deal and yet I still seem to have issues holding my dick and balls in. Kinda makes me wonder how a guy with a big ole 10 inch dong and/or low hangers would be able to get it all to fit in a thong. And I wonder about guys who wear them regularly and how they must not be packing much. 

Saturday, December 21, 2013

Merry XXXmas!

Just wanted to wish ya all a Merry XXXmas filled with merry and fun!

Thursday, December 19, 2013

Questions About My Phone (stolen from someone else's blog)

1. Do you still have a land line?
Yes I do. Not exactly sure why... perhaps in the event that power goes out and my cell is without juice, or something is blocking my cell signal, like aliens or the drone of some giant monster wreaking havoc outside.
2. Which cell phone do you use and why?
I have the Samsung Galaxy S4. I love Samsung's phones. Had the S2 and loved it, so I stuck with Samsung. I refuse to get an iPhone because certain people i've known who've had it were so obnoxious about how much they loved it it's given me a bad taste in my mouth.
3. Which provider do you use? Is there really a difference?
I use AT&T. I can't really answer this question as I have not had any other providers before. I've heard good and bad things about all the other providers out there.
4. If you call someone and they don't pick up, do you leave a message?
It depends on why i'm calling. If it's important then I will leave a message.
5. When you have a missed call (with no message), do you call the person back?
No unless I think it's important, but then again, if it were important, they would leave a message, no?
6. Do you text willingly or reluctantly? How are your skills?
Willingly. I prefer texting to making phone calls. I hate talking on the phone, it's not really my thing. I find that texting is a less intrusive way of communicating information to someone.
7. Has your cell phone replaced your camera?
Actually it has. My cell has become my camera, my calculator, my calorie counter, my e-mail messenger, my digital encyclopedia, my directions source, etc.
8. Selfies?
I'll let this photo answer that question...
9. How many apps do you have? Which is your favorite and why?
I haven't counted them but not too many. My favorite one is probably PicsArt, which is a photo studio that allows me to do all sorts of things with pictures. Such as....
10. What would life be like with no cell/smart phone for one month?
I think it would make my social life less active, but on the other hand it might make me focus with more detail on other things.
How much has your cell phone become a part of your sex life? Sexting, hookup apps, selfies, video, GPS, more?
This is a timely question. Last night I logged onto one of those apps to say hi to a friend. A half hour later I got hit up by some young bear dude. Within a few hours he was over my place, giving me a very good rimjob. Haha! It's become an easy way to communicate with fuck buddies to see if they're available or vice versa. I can't tell you how many times i've gotten random texts, e-mails, messages, etc from someone that resulted in naked shenanigans.

Sunday, December 15, 2013

Science Fiction Double Feature!

I got the opening song of Rocky Horror Picture Show playing through my head as I write these reviews of 2 sci-fi films I saw. Not really a double feature as I saw them both on different days, but anyway.....
A very original story by Brandon Cronenberg (son of David) that brings to mind the some of the twisted science fiction films of his father, such as Videodrome, The Brood and Existenz. It takes place in the near future, where society's fixation with celebrity has reached such ridiculous levels that sick stars sell their disease to companies, who go and inject high paying customers with said disease so that the fans can feel more connected to the celebrity they worship. The lead character works for one of these companies, and he's secretly selling some of the infections he draws from celebrities on the side to shady people for profit. The film includes such insane concepts as a butcher shop that grows cells of certain celebrities and makes steaks out of them, to sell to customers who want to eat the reproduced cell meat of their favorite star. Things go bad when one of the most popular celebrities becomes infected with a serious virus that the lead character has also acquired, and suddenly he's thrust into a conspiracy of trying to find out where this man-made virus came from so that he can save the star and himself. All the actors are quite good and the concept is sick enough to be fascinating.
The only thing I could think of is that this movie might not be everyone's cup of tea. It's a very original film that shows the viewer something different and does it quite well.
I'd give it an 8½. Like I said, a very original, different science fiction film that's intelligently written, well acted and filled with very sick ideas.
A crew on a 6 month mission on Mars are ready to pack up and leave towards Earth, when one of the crew members discovers living bacteria that puts the crew in jeopardy. The film shows some striking cinematography of the surface of Mars, including dust storms. It's fast paced enough to not drag or bore.
It doesn't feature anything that you haven't seen before. It's basically Alien with zombies. It even features the usual clich├ęd characters you'd see in films of this type: the bitchy scientist who only cares about the discovery, the coward who can't be trusted and you know will turn on everyone, the logical female who keeps everyone calm, and characters reacting with emotion over logic when you would think that trained astronauts would have enough mental control to use their heads first. The lead character, played by Liev Schreiber, also has flashbacks to some situation while they were in space that causes him PTSD, but the scenes showing what happened don't explain enough to make it seem that serious, and Schreiber doesn't have the emotional range to make his panic attacks seem riveting enough to make you care. And some of the action sequences are done with such fast cuts and choppy editing that the viewer doesn't get the full rush that they should deliver.
About a 6. Decent but not remarkable.

Monday, December 9, 2013

The End Of The Year

Well it's almost the end of the year. It went by fast. Some things changed. Some things stayed the same. I stayed connected with most everyone I know except one person whom I stopped being friends with. No loss there, as he was turning into one of those annoying people that you find yourself wondering more and more "and i'm hanging out with this person because???" The older I get the less tolerance I have for self-centered, egotistical, pretentious, judgemental idiots who point out others mistakes as if their shit don't stink, so distance myself I did, and it worked.
I continued going to the gym and losing weight. People keep telling me i'm losing weight, that they've noticed. And I enjoy working out as well. Seeing the result myself is nice. I just pack my gym bag and go right after work, I find that method works best for me. The hot guys working out and in the locker room/shower are an added bonus. ;-)
I did a lot of fun things this year, attended a lot of fun events, including a few live shows. The best by far was The Presets. They put on a damn good show, full of energy.
Did a lot of dancing at clubs. One that plays mash-up DJ mixes (a mash-up is where a DJ will mix 2 or 3 songs to create a new song, and many times they'll mix artists from different genres to get something interesting). The same club, on another night, hosts a goth/industrial/synth pop night, and that was fun, dancing to a lot of the stuff I grew up listening to. And of course there were the underwear parties where I stripped down to a jockstrap and sweated it out with hot, half naked men (and then some). Even in my early 40's I find clubbing lots of fun.
I got to see a lot of naked public flesh at Pride, Dore Alley and Folsom Street Fair. I even serviced a few dudes at Dore Alley. After all, when in Rome... hehehe!
The japanese toy company Bandai allowed me to flex my geek muscle as it released a new series of 5" Ultraman monster figures. I've gotten quite a few (and currently am expecting 3 more from ebay). They also released the complete series of Ultraseven and Return Of Ultraman on DVD, which I got and am eagerly looking forward to the release of more.
I watched several new movies this last year. The one that really stood out, though, was the remake of the 80's slasher classic, Maniac. It was originally released in late 2012 I think, but I was able to watch it this year. Anyways, anyone who knows me knows that I usually hate remakes of horror movies. This one, however, is the rare exception that gets it right. It was fantastic, brutal, and the killer was played by Elijah Wood, who took on a different approach to the title character, portraying him more like a severely socially phobic nutcase who murders women due to mommy issues. This was the best horror film I saw all year. Simply awesome!
Not a bad year at all. The holidays were either lots of fun (Halloween) or uneventful (as I expect Christmas to be, though the pic below is what i'd love to see happen, hehe!).
So this year wasn't bad at all.

Thursday, December 5, 2013


It's been pretty cold here in California. Not as cold as other regions of the US, but still chilly for this area. Winter is officially here. Despite the low 30's this morning, I still saw someone dressed like the above pic while getting coffee before work. Only in California. Hehe...

Monday, December 2, 2013


Lately i've been hearing/reading people complain about how modern technology is causing humans to be disconnected from one another. Just last week I was on a train heading to SF and noticed 2 sets of people on the same train as me. One was an older man and his teenage daughter. She had her earphones plugged into her smartphone, and the entire time she was looking at her phone and not once saying a single word to her dad. Sitting on the opposite side was a woman and her teenage daughter, and again I saw the same thing: kid was so preoccupied with her device she was completely ignoring her mother.
Over the weekend I saw my family and one of my brothers complained to my dad about how no one socializes anymore because they're all busy on their smartphones. While I can agree with this to a certain degree, I found it amusing when he then went into raving to my dad about all the cool features that smart phones have, like directions and the ability to look up information within seconds.
It made me realize that this modern technology, like everything else in life, has it's ying and yang, it's good and bad. While it may keep people from socializing more, in some cases that's not a bad thing, as certain people are not worth socializing with and you find yourself thanking the powers that be for that smartphone that allows you to ignore them. And then I think about how some days i'll be somewhere, minding my own business, and I suddenly get a text or message or e-mail from someone, and next thing I know i'm out and about with this person/persons, doing something fun. That wouldn't happen as often without my smartphone.
I think i'm at the perfect age where I can appreciate the good things that this modern technology has, while not getting too caught up in it because I grew up without it and can recall life before it. And I do enjoy interacting and socializing with strangers... just not all of them.  ;-)

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Bear or Cub?

That is the question. For the longest time I referred to myself as a bear. Not that it mattered, but since people feel the need to identify themselves with labels I figured i'd go with one that best represented me.
I joined a gym last year, started working out regularly, etc, and shed some pounds. Not much, or so I had thought, but everyone who sees me begs to differ. In the last few months i've been told "you're shedding pounds", "you're wasting away", "you've lost hella weight", "what are you eating that you're losing all this weight??", etc. One friend even went so far as to say to me "Skinny bitch, you ain't a bear anymore!"
And then there's the dudes. This last year, especially, i've been called cub by lots of guys. Never bear, just cub. I figured that at my age (41, soon to be 42) I was too old to be referred to as a cub but I guess that's not so. Not that it matters. I don't mind being referred to as a cub. If the guy is hot, if it's in the middle of some good sex, you can call me cub all ya want.
I've always thought this labeling thing was kinda silly, as everyone has their interpretation of what a certain "type" is and what a certain "type" is not. And I can't say that I like certain types either, because although there's certain features that make me more attracted to a dude (beard, hairy body, tattoos, shaved head, nipple or septum piercings, big feet) those features can be found in many different types of guys. But I do like bears... or cubs... or whatever they're currently being called.  :-/

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Photo Randomness.....

Today's entry is just a bit of photo randomness. Some pics I had on my phone or came across and what I have to say about them.
1. This pic is from a story that showed up on Facebook about a guy who was allegedly kicked out of a football game for wearing a speedo. This guy is FUCKING HOT and maybe the powers that be were jealous that he was drawing more attention than the game. Not sure if this really happened, but if cheerleaders can wear very little, than this stud can show off sexy body.
2. I took this photo earlier this year in a coffee shop bathroom. I wondered why this sticker was placed on a liquid hand dispenser. The only thing I could think of is that someone in the bathroom was applying something (lube, anal-eze gel, douche) getting ready for a play date, or someone was applying some medical cream (preperation H) for something not so fun.
3. This photo is just random and funny. I wouldn't offer to suck dick for beer as i'd do it for free. ;-)
4. I've always wanted to buy a pair of plain white vans and paint them/marker them up myself.
5. Speaking of things i've always wanted to do, i've always wanted to try this... yes, that's correct. I've always wanted to try taking 2 dicks up my ass. While it's tempting to say that it may be painful and difficult, when I think of the times i've taken quite large ones or been gang banged by a few guys one right after the other it suddenly seems more do-able.
6. When I came across this picture I was filled with nostalgic joy. I vividly recall watching this ridiculous, weird documentary, Overlords Of The UFO. I wish someone would release it on DVD as i'd love to watch it again. Mysteries From Beyond Earth and Encounter With The Unknown were also cool favorites. I love those cheesy 70's documentaries, they sure don't make 'em like that anymore.
7. I've always found it amusing how "straight" guys will think nothing of pulling out their dicks and pissing in front of each other, even goofing off (such as in this pic) and continuing to insist they don't have a gay bone in their body.
8. When I first saw this photo my attention was immediately drawn to the bearded, tattooed punk, whom I think is HOT! Upon closer inspection I realized the irony of what's tattooed on his arm and what he's holding in his hand.
9. I was amused when I first saw this pic. In my case it would be a little bit of What Friends Think, What Dad Thinks and What I Actually Do... ok, maybe some of What Mom Thinks. Haha!
10. Random scribbling in a public bathroom stall.

Sunday, November 10, 2013


It's been SF bear pride all last week + weekend. Last night I went out to a club for an event called Underbear, which was an underwear dance party. I stripped down to my green Nasty Pig jockstrap and after a few shots and beers was happy, drunk + dancing. The club got packed with half naked, horny guys. I recall making out with a sexy Australian cub, his bear buddy, and a couple from Vancouver. Got felt up as well. Fun fun fun. Then as I left the club I got hit up by a local bud who invited me over and I had fun with him and his young stud bf. Fun times.

Monday, November 4, 2013

Live Music!

This weekend I got to see Cut Copy in concert. My first time seeing them in 2009 they were amazing. This weekend they were fun, not as amazing, though I think that has to do with the fact that in '09 they were touring in support of their album In Ghost Colours, which I was really into at the time and their follow-up album was so-so (haven't listened to the new one I picked up at the show yet). Still I had a good time and it was a nice reminder of why I enjoy live music. The crowd tends to help. There was a chick who asked me if I could move just a little, and when I did she hugged me and said thanks. Then there was the young couple next to me smoking weed, the young latino offering me a hit (I politely declined, but thought it was cool of him anyway). Then there was the tall, very cute bear at the front, who nicely asked these 2 shorter girls behind him if they could see. He was dancing and waving his hands enthusiastically, he was really into it. I think he was straight (though just cuz he was there with a girl didn't necessarily mean he was) but then he also turned around and complimented a dude's mustache behind him, who was there with his boyfriend, so that was cool. Then there was the very enthusiastic gay bear couple next to me, who kept singing the lyrics, jumping and dancing to their favorite songs. And finally there were the balloons with sparkling lights in them that kept bouncing all over the crowd, as well as the glow sticks that kept flying everywhere. I got pegged by a few, and one even broke open and left glow ink all over this oblivious girl's shirt. I recall the last time I saw this band the audience was also really cool, so that was nice. I realize that crowds aren't for everyone, but for those of us who enjoy the chaos, it can be a real fun time. The pic above is the back of the head of the tall cute bear, the best pic I could get of him without being obvious, hehe....

Winter blahs

Now that the best holiday is over (Halloween), there is nothing else to look forward to. Thanksgiving I can take or leave (just an excuse for people to stuff their face and gain weight), Christmas I absolutely hate, with all that fakeness, people sending cards to the people they spend the rest of the year ignoring, all the stores are a war zone with idiots shopping for that ideal gift that will never be good enough, and fools who force  themselves to spend time with those they usually avoid. If I don't like u the rest of the year then guess what? I still don't like u and I hope your tree goes up in flames and ruins your fake holiday. I'm gonna do what I usually do = ignore the "holidays" and hope that a Comet flies off course and smashes into a crowded mall. Mua HAHAHA!!!!

Monday, October 28, 2013


Had a fun weekend. Earlier in the week I went to some haunted houses with a friend, Friday night I saw an indie band that I like with another friend, Saturday night I went out for pre Halloween shenanigans, where I got drunk, made out with a random stranger (who I don't even recall what he looked like), and saw many cool people dressed up in costumes (including the band I saw). I ♥ Halloween! 

Sunday, October 20, 2013

Creepy & Cheesy

Today I stayed home most of the day (except for an excursion to the gym). I'm getting in the spirit of Halloween by watching some horror flicks. I watched Sole Survivor, an obscure 80's movie about a woman who is the only survivor of a plane crash and then starts to get pursued by odd strangers. It's a favorite of mine, creepy and different. On the other side I watched the ultra cheesy Werewolf vs. The Vampire Woman. Below is the YouTube link to the trailer. Funny stuff. 


Saturday, October 19, 2013

It's The Most Wonderful Time Of The Year!

I've had a few days off from work this week, and it's been nice just relaxing, taking it easy. I bought some make-up for Halloween, as I plan to go out the weekend before. I plan on painting my face in a Dia De Los Muertos style. I ♥ Halloween. The other winter holidays, not so much. I think I'll practice beforehand, just to get an idea of how it'll look. Looking forward to it. 

Sunday, October 13, 2013

"You're so brave...."

Last night I went to a Bearracuda underwear party. I've been to a few. They're always fun. Ya strip down to your undies and dance among a crowd of half naked bearrish men. What's not to enjoy? I usually wear a jockstrap and matching sneakers and socks. A friend of mine who I talked with today said I was brave for doing that. If I really think about it, not really. It's not so much that as I want to go out and experience things so that when i'm older I won't look back on my life and say "I wish I had done this and this..." Of course I realize that not everyone is comfortable dancing in their underwear in a club, but sometimes ya gotta just say FUCK IT and not care about being self conscious. When you actually do that you realize how many things that you thought were a big deal really aren't. Like dancing in a club in your jockstrap. However, if you're not cool with random strangers coming up to you and feeling you up, slapping your ass, sliding their fingers along side your buttcrack then ya probably shouldn't do it, or at least keep your clothes on. Haha!

Saturday, October 12, 2013

5 Things

1. Bandai has recently released a new line of 5" figures, some of which I like and have gotten. Re-sculpts and some new kaiju that haven't been released before. The other non-Bandai figure I recently got was an Iron King figure about the same size. He was a more obscure super hero from the 70's who fought giant robots and aliens.

2. I tend to wear flip flops all year round, even in winter months. Then again I live in California so it don't get freezing cold.

3. I don't get people who rush into relationships. I know someone who moved his bf in with him, barely 2 months into them meeting each other. That would be fine except that every other week this guy is posting FB status updates about the drama and issues he's having with his bf. I fully expect to see an update any day now that they've broken up.

4. I hate flakey people. I understand that sometimes shit happens, but when the same people repeatedly pull the same shit of flaking on you, and/or being extremely late, then it gets tiresome and I find myself quick to dismiss those fools. There's certain people who I won't even bother responding to texts/e-mails/invites when I know they won't end up going or that they'll overly complicate simple plans with their untimeliness.

5. I hate when guys who you're having sex with start rubbing their hands all over you. That annoys me to no end. I'm not some needy bitch who needs affection. Just stand there and enjoy the blowjob i'm giving you. On the flip side of that, if i'm having sex with 2 guys and i'm sucking one off while the other is plowing me, I can take the plowing for a very long time, no matter how big or rough he's thrusting. Something about the distraction of sucking a dick makes it do-able. 

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Folsom Street Fair

This weekend I went to Folsom Street Fair. The usual array of dicks and asses. And I was good and didn't give any blowjobs like at Dore Alley. Anyway Here's some pics. 

Fall moodiness,

Ya know it's funny... occassionally i'll find myself feeling kinda blue, maybe sad, maybe a little depressed, maybe even lonely. Then i'll go out for a bit to run an errand, get to the store, get something to eat, etc, and in that brief period when i'm out in the world i'll find myself easily irritated and annoyed by other people that it almost makes the previous feelings seem like a temporary short circuit of my brain cells. It's almost as if the cosmos are there to remind me "this is why you're single, this is why you prefer solitude". Not sure how I should feel about it, other than to accept it with an equal dose of optimism and pessimism. 

Monday, September 9, 2013

Geekdom + Play

This weekend was filled with geekdom and naughty fun. I picked up a Return of Ultraman dvd, as well as a figure of the monster Black King from that show.

 I also hooked up via Growlr with 2 hot, horny bears, on Saturday evening and Sunday while in SF.

And finally I purchased 2 jockstraps (red and red/black), and a shredder style tank top. It was a fun filled weekend. 

Monday, August 19, 2013

Sunday, August 4, 2013

5 facts about myself. I'm

1. I love checkerboard stuff. Probably why I'm a big fan of Vans clothing and shoes.
2. My butt had been sodomized by so many men I'm surprised it still works. Haha!
3. For a long time I loved tequila but lately sake has become my favorite alcoholic beverage. Especially paired with a good Japanese beer, as in a sake bomb.
4. Despite my new found love of the gym and working out I will always love junk food. These days in moderation but fuck it! You only live once.
5. I can now say that I've given a few blowjobs in public bars. So much for slowing down with age, I think I'm worse in my 40's.